It is hard for me; to allow the emotions to surface
accepting, acknowledging, reveling in the pain
I am not that person, I stand on my own;
I do not need you to care.
Sobriety, so hard earned and yet tossed aside
not in a minute, a day or even a month;
but within a second.
When the reality of your life becomes too much
when the feelings, the truth is just so there, in the forefront,
that is when I duck and hide, I remove myself
because I cannot stand to feel the pain that is my history.