I wrote this in 2012 on this day. I have been paying attention to my ‘On this day….’ and rediscovering lost words. Picture is also mine.
Begone, beyond, feelings tossed to the moors
frightful, disturbing, unwanted, pain
Rapture, only found with denial, with revulsion
go not into the embrace, but fight for hell.
You say you will forgive me, you will wipe away my tears
you say that your eyes alone, can divine the stain upon my soul.
You say that through you and you alone, can I find salvation.
yet you turn your head, your ears, your eyes
When I do not behave;
how your ambassadors on earth feel I should.
Call me not a coward, nor defiant
you and you alone gave me free will
My choice, my decision, my desire
hurt not others, all shall be good.
Find the stain upon my soul,
enough to curse me.
To send me to hell.
Yet you gave me the ability to choose,
and still you punish.
©Jay-lyn Doerksen
August 5/12
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