Ugly Cry

Pain

thick black trendles

rend my soul in two.

Pain

lightening strikes my heart

as I curl inwards.

Pain

the anger, the fear,

the hatred, the crude words spoken

and thick tears run down my face,

snot from my nose.

I feel so much

I use to feel so little

using an addiction to blunt the pain.

Ugly cry

body wracked with savage pain

fingers digging into the landscape

to center my being whole.

©Jay-lyn Doerksen

August 17/17

Rabbit Hole

We sat on sun warmed sand

your arms around me

as we watched the fiery sun

dip beneath the depths.

As the full moon

swanned into the sky

brilliant pinpricks of light sparkled above

and I sighed,

lost in contentment.

Never to last,

not in my happiness

blackness soon did creep.

Morose and unable to cope

you stared at me as I laid in the bed

wanting nothing more than for me to return

so we could be as one again.

Lost down the rabbit hole

sucked through this cycle of weeping and despair.

My fingers barely reach above the current

do you see it there?

©Jay-lyn Doerksen

August 17/17