Can you hear me? See me?
are you aware that I am here
the voice that whispers in your ear;
making you insane.
No one will believe you
no one will ever care
you mean nothing my dear
can you hear?
Daily I fight this battle
trying so hard to ignore the voice
the one that tells me all the time
how wrong I am on this earth.
I counter the voice within my head
list upon list of my deeds
I need to center and balance it out
or else I will lose my mind.
This voice has been with me for always
listing out how I am not worth-
not worth the love, the tenderness
not worth a moment of happiness.
Some days I am the winner
the voice is shut down and out
some days I am the loser
and I begin to doubt.
©Jay-lyn Doerksen
August 22/17