I’m Sorry…..so very sorry

When I met you our time was so brief

but a moment in our present

that quickly became the past,

a silent kiss of desire hidden within a secret.

It was you I turned to during times of trouble

and even from afar

you strove to be my hero,

you worked to build my dreams.

I filled my head with thoughts of fancy

waiting and biding my time

til boredom and neglect

did make me seek out others.

The pain inflicted

wanting and yet trying so hard

to remain true and dear

when really, all you had to do was beckon.

I sowed my truth

and now must pay

for although I offered penence

you did not come near.

I lost you to delay

to fates interception

I lost more than you

I lost a way of life.

I am sorry.

I broke your heart.

I made you feel so low.

I made myself a prize for second place.

Good bye.

Til once more we meet

maybe this time will be different

maybe this time I can reopen your heart.

©Jay-lyn Doerksen

September 6/17

Toxic Charmer

He was just like all the men that have flitted through my life, hummingbirds looking for nectar.

Short on responsibility and long on his own needs.

And I watched a good man walk away, because I did not think

I deserved more.

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Once I danced along,

streets covered in golden dreams

believing the fantasy

that I built from nothing.

Now I creep alone

through empty concrete dreams

my fantasies but ash within my mouth

as my tears bring no relief.

I rend my heart in bitterness

curse my soul that remakes my wound

the scar marking the damage done;

damage I cannot get away from.

©Jay-lyn Doerksen

September 6/17