I do not know….

These words become a jumble on my tongue
twisted and sharp
coming out all wrong.
Stabbing and scoring
damaging your heart without meaning to.
Unable to stop
as the pain and past mingle together
and I make the same mistakes over and over.
I do not know how to be sweet.
I do not know how to be kind.
I do not know how to love.
My past is a charred ruin
of relationships burned
and love never given a chance.
Tears blur my sight
as I watch you leave
knowing that yet again
I have done this to myself.
I am sorry my love.
I am sorry my dear.
All I know how to do
is rend and destroy,
any who come to close
to the fire burning within.
©Jay-lyn Doerksen
November 30/17

Author: Jay-lyn Doerksen

A single hard working mom of a soon to be teenage son. A poet and story teller I have wanted to write since I was a child. This space is where I share stories about myself and my life and the creative poetry that stirs my soul. My hope is you will pull up a chair and a cup of coffee delving into the world that I offer and you find simple enjoyment for a few moments. Welcome to The Wonderful & Wacky World of One Single Mom

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