Indifference

Some days will hurt more than others

with an indescribable pain

when tears free fall like diamond drops

hot and fast

salt on my cheeks

scalding my lips

like your kiss.

Drip drip drip

from my chin to the floor

head bowed beneath the misery

pulled tight with each heartbreak

screams muffled by the pillow

lip bitten to keep me silent

so that I cause you no dismay.

I keep it all hidden

I keep it locked away

I keep it in my heart

I keep it from your eyes.

I want not to cause you pain.

Sorrow you have given me

not with malicious intent

but with indifference.

Indifference to my love

to the words that I speak

indifference to the hand I hold out

an offering for you to keep.

Never doubt

my heart does bleed

emotions taut

love

my love

I shall speak of no more.

©Jay-lyn Doerksen

April 29/18