Reconcile

I find it hard to reconcile

the truth of you

to the truth that I have always known.

I find it hard to reconcile

the notion of you

with the reality that I have always lived.

When suddenly you fell from sight

I sighed with regret

but not dismay

for it is something I am use to.

When weeks went by without a shout

I turned my eyes forward

steeled my heart

and swore off men….

again.

When you sent me a note

apologizing for being a dolt

I was cautiously optimistic

for this was not a part of my reality

apologies

sincere and true.

When again you returned

bearing flowers

a smile

and arms that picked me up

wrapped me tight

with the promise to never let go.

I realized with shame

that all this time

I had assumed

you were going to fail me

just like all the others.

 

 

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Author: Jay-lyn Doerksen

I am a single hard working mom in her 40's. I have always written poetry and I love words. I live with depression and its ups downs. This is a space where I can create and write all that I need to.

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