Open Love Letter

Dear __________:
Please do not hurt me.
You cannot know
how difficult it is to open my heart
to remove the chains that bind
allowing you in.
You cannot understand
how I ache for you to hold me
laying together
doing nothing more than talking
laughing.
You cannot realize
how afraid I am
how I analyze every word
every movement
so I can flee
when your interest dwindles.
Though I am changed
a woman of my present
not of my past
within
residual pain
residual fear
that I will be hurt again.
I take a deep breath
telling myself
you care.
I work to believe….
to hear the voice in my head
that reassures
that recounts
the acts you do to show me.
I try so hard…..
not to self-sabatoge
not to find ways to cause a break
I bite my lip
my heart skips a beat
please please don’t hurt me.
©Jay-lyn Doerksen
June 21/18
Photo by Annie Spratt on Unsplash

Author: Jay-lyn Doerksen

I am a single hard working mom in her 40's. I have always written poetry and I love words. I live with depression and its ups downs. This is a space where I can create and write all that I need to.

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