I wonder
do you feel regret?
You tore away
eroded
destroyed
my self-esteem
my self-worth
made me feel so less
that I could not see the truth.
I say I am sorry
all the time
preventative measures
for when I do wrong.
Unconditional love
does it really exist?
I am so afraid
for the only love I have known
came with strings attached.
Compliment me
I cannot accept
will turn it aside with
‘a yes but…..’
Terrified
that I once more
will be abandoned
deserted
discarded
I erect walls
that grappling hooks cannot breach.
Emotional abuse….
you made me doubt
you made me fear
you made me worthless.
Today
I take it back.
My reality.
No fear.
For I am worth it.
September 24/18
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Very heartfelt writing, emotional abuse can be so damaging, destroying a sense of self. Building yourself back up is a slow process xx
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Thank you. And it is. A long haul. 😊
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Hearts are like buildings… it takes time to build them, but destruction is fast and the impact from it lasts for untold amounts of time.
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That it does. I have finally left it behind and rebuilt myself and belief. Thank you for reading. 😊
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I thoroughly enjoy deep conversation and writing.
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Thank you.
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I think sadness brought more poets to life than happiness.
I just can find words for poems when I’m happy
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I broke through that barrier. Like yourself I never use to be able to write unless I was sad, but now I take my inspiration from everywhere. Thank you for reading. 🙂
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I’m trying to do that
My next post will be up in like 10 min
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I look forward to reading it
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Yes you are worth it. Powerful words and beautifully composed 💕
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Thank you. 😊
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So beautifully written. Wishing you lots of love and healing.
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Thank you.
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