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How?

Tell me
how. 
How the hell do you look the other way
no pain in your heart?
I die
small death
every day
missing you
desiring you
down on my  knees
leave me not behind.
When did I become the joke?
The raspy voiced poet
scanning the darkness
swilling tequila
deadening the pain
images unseen
diamonds collected upon lashes
you see 
here I stood.
Hands outstretched
lifeline needed
turn away 
why?
Explain to me 
please.
What the fuck did I do?
Whispered roars
accusations
so untrue
that is what you say.
Another’s hands upon my skin
another man
looking in my eyes 
thrusting inside
while I move beneath him.
So insecure 
how can that be?
 
Time slows
honey dripping from the cone
love making
lasting til dawn’s light
make me not wait
for I shall say good-bye.
Ta-ta baby
why’d you have to go
and play with my heart?
December 31/18

Taking Back…..

Sugar and Spice
everything nice
that is what girls are made of.
Hell no 
we won’t go.
Leave us our rights
our abilities.
Since the inception of time
men have stood
swinging their clubs
making women sheep.
Finally now
hear us roar
a woman’s movement on the rise.
No longer shall we be silenced
tied up
beaten into submission
our voices will rise.
Glass ceiling
shattering
shards of glass spew down
shredding those
who have stood here
using power to get their way.
Fear the night
looming shadows within
for come time
women will surge
darkness will be overcome.
Women will never ever
have to run again.
 
December 30/18
Photo by Andrew Vickers on Unsplash

Untitled Relationship Poem #3

A blackness welling
pain
erupting
staggering
brings me to my knees.
I gaze back
through filmy gauze
tears forever falling
anguish forever welling
it hurts so much
memories stirred.
One drop
one memory
torrential downpour
flashes
better times
my heart
breaking in two.
How do I explain
the wretchedness enveloping me
when I wear a smile
never letting my pain near?
The core of my being
hollowed out
whittled away
empty
stolen love
gone
like yesterday.
I weep…..
I weep tears
night after night
soaking pillows
cry myself to sleep.
In my dreams
I find you 
still loving me
holding me
needing me.
Day’s break
pain settles over
bitter sweater
stitched with my tears
how do I learn
to let you go?
 
December 29/18

Untitled Story Poem #2

This is the second part which goes along with Untitled Story Poem #1.

My eyes stung
bleeding
dry
from staring at the screen
unable to believe what I was seeing.
Yet it was right there.
In bold lettering and flashing lights.
A tour
trip
to hunt down rapists of children.
A new trade
catering to the justified.
 
It took some planning
Money.
Time.
Passport.
I was more than ready
on departure day.
I did not know what to expect.
I did not know who was meeting me.
I did not know anything 
beyond the burning desire within
to hunt down 
and maul these dangerous men.
 
Envelope waiting upon arrival
telling me where to go.
My money has been received
the rest of the info
it will be there.
Seedy part of town
dilapitated hotels all around
wondering if I have been played
wandering into the sex trade.
 
The man waiting in my room
put all fears to rest.
Reason for the seediness
no one is missed
dead bodies 
a dime a dozen.
This is where the broken weep.
There is a finesse
to slaying with ease
without spray back
blood 
making you visible to the eye.
 
Taught to move through the shadows
loose walk
no tension
just another girl out for a walk.
No fear here
that I will be attacked
this is the lair of indignity
all know I am an avenger
stay out of my way.
Stalking
stiletto drawn
loosely held
no need to cause alarm 
the prey cavorting before me
will fall when I decide.
Misting rain
torrential downpour
hide me
hide my intent
until it is too late.
Muffled scream
blanketed yell
I leap.
One slick slash
blood pumps warm
body falling to the street.
Walking away
stiletto dropped
washed away
down the grate.
I become
one more shadow
moving through the night
without any cares.
December 29/18
Photo by Djim Loic on Unsplash

Untitled Story Poem #1

Sordid unlit alleys
moisture in the air
haunted eyes peering through the cracks
waiting for the devil to draw near.
Did you know 
that there is a disgusting trade
in which a pedophile may book a trip
where he is than provided with a broken child?
Tiny little bodies
left strewn as waste
screams 
half ripped 
from their throats.
Did you know
that it takes a lot 
to break through a child’s defenses?
Leaving them cold
numb
unable to even muster 
the fear that would make them undone.
They no longer have emotions
icy
hearts encased with black ink
until time ceases to have meaning.
Oblivion will come calling
Thantos will hover within reach.
Did you know 
children of abuse
blame themselves?
Cannot fathom what they have done
to be treated as thus. 
Each death
another child
another innocent 
torn away.
Each death
another child 
another innocent
sold
snatched
discarded
for trade.
December 28/18
Photo by Travis Bozeman on Unsplash

Untitled Relationship Poem #2

***Running a little behind schedule today. I wrote this one Saturday December 22/18.***

It hurts me.
Stupidly
I want to wait.
How dumb?
How degrading
that I am putting your wants first?
I love you so
which floors me
leaves me tongue tied
speechless.
I have dropped
scorned
men who want my time
worship at the temple of my body
solely
for the truth
the hope
that your hands will touch me
your love
wrap around me.
Tears
streaming
streaking
filming my gaze
staring at you
wondering
do you still love me too?
I hope.
December 22/18