Win/Win

Its kinda hard

these feelings that I have

I play

I pretend

so my friends

they don’t realize.

My heartache.

My pain.

My wicked dreams.

I know

these screams

locked inside my head

these truths that I see

there is no doubt

fool that I be.

On my knees

realizing

knowing

no end

fuck me

like a tether

between my teeth.

Do you understand?

bit between the teeth….

shackled in

shod

pain filled

tears

slow streaks upon the pane.

My

oh my

are you a figment of my dreams?

A broken wish 

made upon a dead star?

Is what you feel

what I feel

a blissful memory?

Or

lost

your what the fuck

my wanna kick your…….

we both got our way.

December 16/18