Untitled #1 Relationship Poem

These ideals
dreams that I have held
your voice
your hands
your desire
I know
I am…..
not what you want.
I have no need to be supported.
I have no need to ask for money.
You do not understand
how to relate to someone without wants
someone
who can take care of herself
can fend for herself.
Not that there are no wants.
Fiscal they not be.
Wants of…..
 love
desire
make me feel safe
as you have before.
So easy
better for you
to be the provider
the one in control.
When it becomes equal
your fears
my tears
you turn to leave.
Me…..
I wait
hoping your answer
will not make my heart bleed.
December 22/18

Adrift

Daily 
she stood upon the widow’s walk
eyes straining to see
masts against the sky
her man coming home 
to her 
at last.
Like a wicked tale
storms
bedeviled ship
abandoned
floundering 
no where near here.
When at first 
the day did pass
no ship on the horizon
she worried not.
Now 
a decade later
she knew he was not coming home
he would never be back.
A heart can be broken
yet not accept the truth
tis easier  to ignore.
She bedecked herself
in garish make up
clown like 
her gown sparkling
with tiny glass pieces.
When found
picture in hand
they all agreed
finally now she had peace.
 
December 22/18
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