Untitled Relationship Poem #3

A blackness welling
pain
erupting
staggering
brings me to my knees.
I gaze back
through filmy gauze
tears forever falling
anguish forever welling
it hurts so much
memories stirred.
One drop
one memory
torrential downpour
flashes
better times
my heart
breaking in two.
How do I explain
the wretchedness enveloping me
when I wear a smile
never letting my pain near?
The core of my being
hollowed out
whittled away
empty
stolen love
gone
like yesterday.
I weep…..
I weep tears
night after night
soaking pillows
cry myself to sleep.
In my dreams
I find you 
still loving me
holding me
needing me.
Day’s break
pain settles over
bitter sweater
stitched with my tears
how do I learn
to let you go?
 
December 29/18

Untitled Story Poem #2

This is the second part which goes along with Untitled Story Poem #1.

My eyes stung
bleeding
dry
from staring at the screen
unable to believe what I was seeing.
Yet it was right there.
In bold lettering and flashing lights.
A tour
trip
to hunt down rapists of children.
A new trade
catering to the justified.
 
It took some planning
Money.
Time.
Passport.
I was more than ready
on departure day.
I did not know what to expect.
I did not know who was meeting me.
I did not know anything 
beyond the burning desire within
to hunt down 
and maul these dangerous men.
 
Envelope waiting upon arrival
telling me where to go.
My money has been received
the rest of the info
it will be there.
Seedy part of town
dilapitated hotels all around
wondering if I have been played
wandering into the sex trade.
 
The man waiting in my room
put all fears to rest.
Reason for the seediness
no one is missed
dead bodies 
a dime a dozen.
This is where the broken weep.
There is a finesse
to slaying with ease
without spray back
blood 
making you visible to the eye.
 
Taught to move through the shadows
loose walk
no tension
just another girl out for a walk.
No fear here
that I will be attacked
this is the lair of indignity
all know I am an avenger
stay out of my way.
Stalking
stiletto drawn
loosely held
no need to cause alarm 
the prey cavorting before me
will fall when I decide.
Misting rain
torrential downpour
hide me
hide my intent
until it is too late.
Muffled scream
blanketed yell
I leap.
One slick slash
blood pumps warm
body falling to the street.
Walking away
stiletto dropped
washed away
down the grate.
I become
one more shadow
moving through the night
without any cares.
December 29/18
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