Figment

I lay within my lover’s arms

attending the steady heart beat

held tight against the midnight storm

of nightmares 

and drooling beasts.

A gentle hand does caress

pulling sheets close

a summer breeze

dancing over bare skin

as he tilts my head to kiss.

I see the love that shimmers there

I feel it in how he speaks

the low rumble of his voice 

within my chest

making me complete.

With eastern sky beginning to pink

I struggle to stay awake

but sleep does pull 

and eyes do close 

assured that I am safe. 

I stretch my limbs 

contented sigh

hand reaching out to feel…..

cold space is all I find

as you are nothing…..

A figment

a dream slipping

a fantasy 

a man unfound

except 

within the imaginings  of my mind.

 

January 31/19

Untitled Relationship Poem #5

***This poem was written last year during Nov/Dec period. Reworked today***

I allowed it.

I allowed you

to maim me

to bite me

to shred my heart.

There was no breaking in two

it disintegrated.

pain unlike any…..

Any…..

Do you see that?

Any…..

I had felt before.

I stood beneath full moon

lashes glittering with tears

unable to comprehend

bewildered I am

for you seem to be blaming me?

It took a bit

but colors bleed true

slashes of fabric

please release me.

All told me

your actions

are louder than words.

Never thought it true.

You have proved me wrong.

I regret

having thought you were different

that you were…..

maybe Prince Charming…..

my own love story…..

when all you are is a farce.

I do not regret

having allowed you into my life

though you made me bleed

opened my heart

learned I could love

find the right partner again.

Too bad

So sad

Guess you have no one to blame.

Oh wait

Yes you do

Yourself

While I…..

I learn to be free.

January 30/19