Pathetic

You are not him.
Not the fool you play.
Jester
all will laugh
never noticing
tears 
unchecked because
none of them love.
I feel sorry
babe I really do.
Guess why.
I loved you.
I would have done anything
for in your light 
grew
yet 
joke I became
derision 
all I feel
for what you have done.
Your loss
our loss
for once
I truly belived
I had found my soul mate.
The man who understood me
who let me be me
who encouraged me
who read my poetry.
Blinded by tears
I have to break free.
I have to run.
Otherwise
I will wait…..
I will wait….
I will wait….
pathetic am I.
 
January 3/19