Pathetic

You are not him.

Not the fool you play.

Jester

all will laugh

never noticing

tears 

unchecked because

none of them love.

I feel sorry

babe I really do.

Guess why.

I loved you.

I would have done anything

for in your light 

I ignited

grew

yet 

joke I became

derision 

all I feel

for what you have done.

Your loss

our loss

for once

I truly belived

I had found my soul mate.

The man who understood me

who let me be me

who encouraged me

who read my poetry.

Blinded by tears

I have to break free.

I have to run.

Otherwise

I will wait…..

I will wait….

I will wait….

pathetic am I.

 

January 3/19

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