Untitled Poem Daily Word #12

I awoke this morning
from a beautiful dream
of me and you 
laying together 
building a future 
for ourselves
that can now no longer be true.
Tears
stream
seep
soak the pillow beneath me
as I lay 
my hand outstretched to that cold place beside
where once you did lay.
Every time I believe…..
I believe I have shuttered my heart
against the pain
the anguish
the sudden slam of memories
I discover 
I am wrong.
My heart
thawing beneath your love.
You shattered
destroyed
obliterated
the marble cage I had built
melted the barriers of ice between bars
reaching in
making me believe
in true love again.
I keep writing the same love song
humming it along
hoping to stem the flow of tears
weariness
pain
that I feel.
When does it end?
I do not even know.
I ask of you
when does it end?
I awoke before you could answer
tears shimmering 
unchecked
unfallen
in the corner of your eyes
as you reached for me
making my heart bleed again.
 
January 5/19