Untitled Relationship Poem #4

Sadness.

Inevitable.

A cloak of darkness

a mantle

blankets me

entering my heart

shredding my emotions

making me cry.

Tears fall from blinded  eyes.

In the corner I stand

eyes furtive

settling on no one

calling no attention to myself.

I wonder how I can be so lonely

in a room full of people.

I move

a shadow

brief stirring of air

as I pass

leaving the room .

None notice.

I have made no impression.

I am not the one you are looking for

when your eyes rove around the room.

I am not the one.

Never was I the one.

You played with me

toyed with me

adoration shining from my eyes

unable to see

but a brief stop was I

you never meant to stay.

Tears fall

crumpled in a heap

loneliness assaulting 

black bottomless pain

ripping me apart.

January 13/19

Devil’s Own

I dream.

I watch.

I feed upon pain

rage

anguish

bloated with sin.

Tell me true

what fucking game

do you play?

Images unseen

lids sealed

I pretend

incensed

feeding upon….

waste

upon…..

envy

upon…..

fear.

Honey

watch me make you  burn.

Images

dancing beneath lids

crackling fire

backdrop for stars

cold

empty.

Espy

I will wave hello

watching

flames consuming

demons crunching on your soul.

Oooops…..

did I forget to tell?

Embraced as hell’s own

guess what baby

now you have to pay what is due.

You never knew.

You warned me.

I……

well honey

I warned you too

that hell would make you pay….

should you….

fuck with the devil’s own.

You thought

I was another mouthpiece

hot air

speaking without authority…..

Oh baby

did you think I was foolin?

I warned you true

fuck with me

hell will want you.

Sitting upon my granite throne

watching you dance

amongst the flames.

Exquisite revenge

petty feelings

swirl through

as you writhe in pain.

Justified?

Only time will tell.

 

January 13/18

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