Ignore

Dreams of you……

I rose with tears in my eyes

pillow soaked 

for images I was sure I had buried

are raging through my head.

I want to be so angry.

I want to scream

rail

storm

revile you to all I know

but I cannot.

I want to hide.

Memories

strong 

good

us together

dance passed.

Cowering behind the door

hiding from the monsters of our past

I cannot go on.

I cannot….. 

I cannot…..

I cannot…..

Summer’s sweet blush

a love once true

imagine

that could have been us.

Heart wrecked

shredded 

torn

destroyed 

in one callous act.

Today I wish I could say goodbye.

Instead 

a physical ache

grips my body tight

wracking me

shattering my bones

while I scream at the night.

Everyone wonders

why I cannot let go

why I still love you so.

How do I explain

that you relit the passion

that had been missing from my life?

I miss your arms.

I have forgotten the taste of your lips.

When next you see me

gaze upon me fondly

quietly ignoring the tears.

January 14/19

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