Untitled Poem Daily Word #14

I am not even sure what to say.

I do not want to feel this way.

Believe me I am not trying to lay more on your plate

I honestly just need you to understand.

Love

trust

I believed in you

I wanted you

want you

when you told me you loved me

I wonder

did you mean true?

I cannot let the images go

tears

a constant pressure behind my eyes

all I want

is to be back in your arms.

Oh my god

I cannot stop

I cry every night

because I miss you so

whether or not you miss me

I still do not know.

At first I thought it was an obsession

but it is not

for images of you strike me

memories of us

lay me bare

I am sorry

I love you so

forgive me please

I am trying to let you go.

I do not want to.

I know I have to.

This intricate dance we do

one step forward

three back

is a seduction of the mind

of the senses.

Do you know

how little it would take

on your behalf

to make me stay?

I miss you.

I miss you.

I miss you……

I will miss you until the end.

January 16/19