Help?

Can you help me?

I need to excise these feelings.

I need to eradicate this love.

I need to eliminate my heart

will you show me how?

Like ‘Insensitive’

that song keeps playing in my mind

I wonder was I to pass the time?

Many a morning

an evening too

I watched you grow smaller

in the rear view.

Had I known

the last time there

would be my last

I would have savored the moment more

those few precious seconds

I was wrapped in your arms.

Ties that bind

shaking my head

to clear

memories I still hold dear

remembrances of your scent

the heavy feel of your arm pulling me close

as my head rested

listening to your heartbeat.

That steady thrum

helped me to sleep

many a night

when monsters tortured my dreams.

Now alone

the monsters are free to roam

there is no protector

no white knight

saving me

with a vicious uppercut

and double edged sword.

Please…..

fight for me

slay dragons for me

keep me safe

why do we run

when really we both need to be?

Speak clear

tell me true

should I get over you?

I cannot.

I know….

I know that I am building a fantasy

but

never have you told me not to.

All I want to know

all I need to know

is…….

do you love me still?

 

January 17/19