Untitled Word of the Day Poem #25

***Please note that I am not feeling like this now. ****
Silence
sharp
enveloping
blankets the room
shadows
black as sin
creep around the bed
under
along the walls.
Huddled beneath the blankets
afraid to even breath
monsters
they hide not in the closet
not beneath the bed
locked deep in my head.
Unable to move
wrapped
frozen with fear
small gasps
praying
hoping 
fingers crossed
they will not know I am there.
I have fled
run from
the darkness that bides
within
mind and soul
where it came from
how it stays
I do not know.
Each time the monsters come closer
they devour…..
my being
my confidence
my very existence
until
I am no more.
Feb. 28/19

False Idol

Mirror on the wall
tell me true
am I the fairest in the world
or is it just an illusion
smoke and mirrors
so none can see my faults?
Behind languid smile
eyes bright with hazy dream
vast black
empty
void
space
where hearts once lived.
Now
only grief.
Leave me be
shrill
gasping
screaming shrew
let me live…..
within this fantasy.
Watch…..
I walk down aisle
all turn to look
uncertain why
they are drawn
magnatized to my being.
They do not see
imps
demons
devil’s spawn
tempting
teasing
seducing mind
with images of non-existence.
Black shadows
oozing 
sluicing down walls
twining
dancing around 
unwary souls.
Wondering you are
who I may be?
Call me
Lilith
Jezebel
Harlot of the sea.
Who I am 
matters not.
It is who you….. 
see me to be…..
want me to be…..
that matters.
 
Feb 27/19

Untitled Word of the day Poem #24

Set back
my home
my prison
at the end of the road
watching 
every day
as live people walk by
shuffle by
run by
afraid of the voices calling.
Vicious
murderous
we rove through these grounds
reaching for the living
as they pass.
Signs of the cross
muttered prayers
crossing the road
flick the evil eye
all in attempt to stay saved
from this mealy yard.
Eyes vacant
lips creased in sneers
wandering this death spot
forever attached to this sin.
stones falling
rubble abounds.
Once this was a hospital.
Once a school.
Once an insane asylum.
Now blooded
blackened
ruins 
unsanctified ground
rovers we all be.
Murderous Fools.
Revenge on the lip
curse on the sky
forever tied to these broken bones.
Feb. 26/19

Untitled Word of the Day Poem #23

Tell me
is it easy?
To deny?
To look aside
from our love?
I know
not dreams
not fantasy
truth
neither of us had seen.
Welling
rage
tears
pain
fear
look in my eyes
tell me dear
that you love me not.
I wonder
am I ridiculous?
I will play
I will pet
call me when you will
I will come.
tail between my legs
biting my inner lip.
I need you
want you
love your so.
Where do we go?
What path do we take?
Tell me lover
tell me true
what the hell
is going on…..
between me and you?
Is this an act?
When you brush my hair back
look deep into my eyes
lips so close
I can feel breath
upon my neck
making me blush
tremble
weak at the knees.
I want to believe
we will be
as once we were
we shall be again.
In my heart
secrets caged
love I feel
so hard to let go
although…..
I pretend
I turn aside
crazy smile on my lips
yearnings I have
not to speak.
Fallen hard I have
desperate to let go
knowing
you have my heart
my love
forever more.
Feb. 25/19

Untitled Word of the Day Poem #22

‘Hey diddle diddle
the cat and the fiddle
the cow jumped over the moon……..’
We are asked to believe
to admit
that there is more
that life is not as we know it
but built upon fairy tales
strata
layers
ring upon ring
marking each day
each decade
each century.
Kings have swung.
Queens have lost their heads.
Bowing before common ground
see the Devil
swear to be his bride
if only
he turns
looks the other way
let me flail
drown
second guess
before scooping me free.
Sorry am I
rhymes spill off my tongue
no one wants
this girl
woman
easier to call bitch
build a wall
a jail
keep away
a game we play.
Guess why I do
what I do.
Do you see?
Without me
he would devour the earth.
I submit to sin
to anger
rage
black soul
devoured
bright light
scoring my mind
crawl forward
blind
I believe
I know
I guess
I am the world’s Queen
able to eradicate fear
pain
bloated
sucking in the darkness
bow before
sickened
gorged on death
I fall……
Good bye
so long
fade away
do I
thank you for the memories.
Feb. 24/19

Untitled Relationship Poem #8

***I began this back in December. Today I finished it off. Creatively.***
Did you do this to suck me back in?
I build up this fantasy
I attribute to you
ideas
feelings
desires
which are mine
not yours.
I hurt myself
thinking that there is a possibility
you might want me as much as I want you.
Tell me true……
do you love me?
do you miss me?
do you want me still?
I want to twine my arms
my legs
my body around yours.
I want to
feel safe
feel desired
feel wanted.
I miss you so……
but 
I need to know
am I only a game to you?
Tell me true
do not lead me on
not by the nose
not by the…….
please
I need the truth
which I hold dear.
Truth I espouse.
I need it.
Lies are evil
torn me down
hurt me
left me a bleeding mess
emotionally.
Do not lie to me.
I have never lied to you. 
Never.
This is me…..
down on my knees…….
begging you please…..
do not hurt me. 
 
Feb. 23/19