Untitled Relationship Poem #8

***I began this back in December. Today I finished it off. Creatively.***

Did you do this to suck me back in?

I build up this fantasy

I attribute to you

ideas

feelings

desires

which are mine

not yours.

I hurt myself

thinking that there is a possibility

you might want me as much as I want you.

Tell me true……

do you love me?

do you miss me?

do you want me still?

I want to twine my arms

my legs

my body around yours.

I want to

feel safe

feel desired

feel wanted.

I miss you so……

but 

I need to know

am I only a game to you?

Tell me true

do not lead me on

not by the nose

not by the…….

please

I need the truth

which I hold dear.

Truth I espouse.

I need it.

Lies are evil

torn me down

hurt me

left me a bleeding mess

emotionally.

Do not lie to me.

I have never lied to you. 

Never.

This is me…..

down on my knees…….

begging you please…..

do not hurt me. 

 

Feb. 23/19