Untitled Relationship Poem #8

***I began this back in December. Today I finished it off. Creatively.***
Did you do this to suck me back in?
I build up this fantasy
I attribute to you
ideas
feelings
desires
which are mine
not yours.
I hurt myself
thinking that there is a possibility
you might want me as much as I want you.
Tell me true……
do you love me?
do you miss me?
do you want me still?
I want to twine my arms
my legs
my body around yours.
I want to
feel safe
feel desired
feel wanted.
I miss you so……
but 
I need to know
am I only a game to you?
Tell me true
do not lead me on
not by the nose
not by the…….
please
I need the truth
which I hold dear.
Truth I espouse.
I need it.
Lies are evil
torn me down
hurt me
left me a bleeding mess
emotionally.
Do not lie to me.
I have never lied to you. 
Never.
This is me…..
down on my knees…….
begging you please…..
do not hurt me. 
 
Feb. 23/19