Untitled Word of the Day Poem #22

‘Hey diddle diddle
the cat and the fiddle
the cow jumped over the moon……..’
We are asked to believe
to admit
that there is more
that life is not as we know it
but built upon fairy tales
strata
layers
ring upon ring
marking each day
each decade
each century.
Kings have swung.
Queens have lost their heads.
Bowing before common ground
see the Devil
swear to be his bride
if only
he turns
looks the other way
let me flail
drown
second guess
before scooping me free.
Sorry am I
rhymes spill off my tongue
no one wants
this girl
woman
easier to call bitch
build a wall
a jail
keep away
a game we play.
Guess why I do
what I do.
Do you see?
Without me
he would devour the earth.
I submit to sin
to anger
rage
black soul
devoured
bright light
scoring my mind
crawl forward
blind
I believe
I know
I guess
I am the world’s Queen
able to eradicate fear
pain
bloated
sucking in the darkness
bow before
sickened
gorged on death
I fall……
Good bye
so long
fade away
do I
thank you for the memories.
Feb. 24/19

Untitled Relationship Poem #8

***I began this back in December. Today I finished it off. Creatively.***
Did you do this to suck me back in?
I build up this fantasy
I attribute to you
ideas
feelings
desires
which are mine
not yours.
I hurt myself
thinking that there is a possibility
you might want me as much as I want you.
Tell me true……
do you love me?
do you miss me?
do you want me still?
I want to twine my arms
my legs
my body around yours.
I want to
feel safe
feel desired
feel wanted.
I miss you so……
but 
I need to know
am I only a game to you?
Tell me true
do not lead me on
not by the nose
not by the…….
please
I need the truth
which I hold dear.
Truth I espouse.
I need it.
Lies are evil
torn me down
hurt me
left me a bleeding mess
emotionally.
Do not lie to me.
I have never lied to you. 
Never.
This is me…..
down on my knees…….
begging you please…..
do not hurt me. 
 
Feb. 23/19