Learning to Live

Tears

cold

desperate

trace a route

over gaunted cheeks

blooded lips

as I stare in the window

picture a scene

of warmth

of love

one I have been left out of.

I thought…..

silly woman that I am…..

feelings ran true

through you

only to discover that the lies you spoke

broken promises made

a habit of which you cannot be broke.

Silken words

wrapped like ribbons around my heart

tugging

pulling

opening me up

to pain

to dismay

to disgust with myself.

Watching

sadness

your attempt to appease your guilt

drink away

smoke away

you know

in your heart

that you have done me wrong.

Even were you to whisper I am sorry

were you to gather me in your arms

coming back

no longer an option.

I have learned to live without you.

March 1/19