Learning to Live

Tears
cold
desperate
trace a route
over gaunted cheeks
blooded lips
as I stare in the window
picture a scene
of warmth
of love
one I have been left out of.
I thought…..
silly woman that I am…..
feelings ran true
through you
only to discover that the lies you spoke
broken promises made
a habit of which you cannot be broke.
Silken words
wrapped like ribbons around my heart
tugging
pulling
opening me up
to pain
to dismay
to disgust with myself.
Watching
sadness
your attempt to appease your guilt
drink away
smoke away
you know
in your heart
that you have done me wrong.
Even were you to whisper I am sorry
were you to gather me in your arms
coming back
no longer an option.
I have learned to live without you.
March 1/19

Author: Jay-lyn Doerksen

I am a single hard working mom in her 40's. I have always written poetry and I love words. I live with depression and its ups downs. This is a space where I can create and write all that I need to.

55 thoughts on “Learning to Live”

      1. I’m not a believer of karma. But I do believe that vengeance is the Lord’s. Plus, I don’t know why anyone would want to hurt you…

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      2. Well, I respectfully leave that up to you, if you ever feel the need to talk to me about. I will still accept you and what I know about you from our completely over the top silly conversations.

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      3. I still think it’s those frozen conditions up yonder… once your head thaws in the spring you’re going to reread our conversations and say to yourself, o’muhgoodness…… 😑

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