Destruction of Heart

Blindly
tears fill my eyes
staring at the spidered ceiling
unable
unwilling 
to move
to arise
to live my life.
Pain
encompassing 
always there
no relief 
no contentment
only a blackness
surrounding me
entering me
consuming me.
Memories
happier times
loving times
all I have left
destroyed
raped
slaughtered
laughter ringing in my ears.
I lay on the ground
grasping 
anchoring myself
blood running
rivulets
spooling beneath me
nurturing the earth
depleting my soul.
High above
mystic angel
hovers
concerned
unsure
of how to intervene
how to make this…..
this horror
a teachable moment
knowing only that it had to be now.
Flowing through my senses
summer breeze
lilac
honeyed flowers
eyes flutter
open
weak will to live
more strength
surging
flowing from one to the other
I begin to return
turning my back on that black abyss.
Decision made.
Eyes flare with rage.
I will never let you destroy me
again.
March 25/19
Image by David Bruyland from Pixabay