My Bad

Silver silences
whispers
caress
my body
my heart 
they yearn for you.
Memories of your warmth
your kindness
intertwoven with anger
violent
scary.
It was good
than it wasn’t…..
my heart bled
rivers of tears
sodden
can I fall in love?
Missing you
I tell lies
I blindly ignore the truth.
You made me a queen…..
you made me a fool…..
you made me dance 
unto your tune.
I want you
I need you
I desire
I despise
emotions blindly assumed.
my bad
should know
time cannot be turned back.
 
March 28/19
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