Lonely Girl

Waves
silky smooth water
crystal clear
I wade through
lost in my thoughts
my wonderings
head so far in the clouds
many wonder
are my feet on the ground?
I am a lonely girl
building sand castles
from fluffy white clouds
when all I want
all I need…..
Romance
love
adoration
once words I spoke aloud
with meaning
emotion
now are dead
tasteless
tripping from my tongue
venom to the soul.
I am a lonely girl
building sand castles
with moats 
with gates
along the sea shore
when all I want
all I need…..
Courage
bravery
determination
I will move through
face the pain
give grief its home
yearning for absolution
ability to forgive myself.
I am a lonely girl
building fantasies
romances
holding my heart captive 
when all I want
all I need……
I use to think was you. 
©April 25/19
Picture via Pinterest and as always found by The Eclectic Contrarian