I see you……

I suddenly realize

the need

the desire

the want

to be in the forefront

everyone’s attention on you.

You fear you are invisible.

You fear that you matter not.

So 

play that role

sing that song

I see you

the real you 

beneath it all.

I am no longer blind.

No longer looking

seeing through rose colored glasses

despite

in spite of

this swirl of emotions

I realize……

I am not meant to be your lover.

I am not meant to be your soul.

I am meant to be your haven.

I am meant to be your truth.

I am meant to show you…..

what love really is.

I am meant to be

that one true love

lucky to be discovered 

once in a lifetime.

Showing you

showing me

what could be.

Denial.

Anger.

Draw the curtains.

Pretend not to see.

Pretend not to feel.

Push me away

push me to the side

but I see you baby

I see it all.

The warts.

The agony.

The fire.

Never

am I going to leave you

always I will be here

loving you

even when you believe 

you are not worth it.. 

 

©May 13/19

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