Word of the Day Challenge Poem #32 (Untitled)

When unfettered
when time unfolds
peace comes to heart
desirous new needs
felt
found
I am who I am meant to be.
Confident?
One might think
yet I am not.
No longer is there a voice
no longer do I berate
but critical
oh yes
I struggle with…….
acceptance 
of what I see in the mirror.
Afraid?
No longer
never again
for I am strong
for I am love
for the nightmare has been banished
sent on its way.
Sometimes though
in the dark of night
the nightmare returns
causing me to scream in fright.
To beg 
for help that never arrives.
Lost?
Never again
no longer.
For I know who I am
I know the path that I must walk
how to get where I need to be.
Once I was…..
lost that is…..
wandering
alone
unaccepting
hiding from all the pain.
All of this…..
the ideas
the emotions
foreign to me.
What I have found
a bone deep happiness
settling in
taking over.
Once there was pain.
Once there was fear.
Once….. 
I could only numb
my mind.
©May 19/19