Untangled

Bolt of lightening
realization
what a jackass
what a joke I have become
that I twisted
toiled
to make things the same
when I should have run.
Flinching
memories
not the good ones
I shudder to think
how petulant
whiny child
I must have been
how you must have made mock.
I was blind
now I see.
I was deaf
now I hear.
I was senseless
now I know.
Resignation
for having yearned
for having longed
for having wished
to feel your hands
to feel your warmth
once more hear the sweetness of your voice.
Raising my head
I blink
looking around.
Suddenly
colors most vibrant
cool spring scent in the air
warm sunshine
my fog has lifted
joy I have found
I can finally let go
I can finally say good-bye
and recapture my heart.
©May 20/19