Untangled

Bolt of lightening

realization

what a jackass

what a joke I have become

that I twisted

toiled

to make things the same

when I should have run.

Flinching

memories

not the good ones

I shudder to think

how petulant

whiny child

I must have been

how you must have made mock.

I was blind

now I see.

I was deaf

now I hear.

I was senseless

now I know.

Resignation

for having yearned

for having longed

for having wished

to feel your hands

to feel your warmth

once more hear the sweetness of your voice.

Raising my head

I blink

looking around.

Suddenly

colors most vibrant

cool spring scent in the air

warm sunshine

my fog has lifted

joy I have found

I can finally let go

I can finally say good-bye

and recapture my heart.

©May 20/19