Black Breath

Dimly lit

hidden desires

soaked in whisky dreams.

Ice clicks

chimes

fall against the side of crystal

bells tolling for the pain.

Easy down

burning

right into the gut

warm embrace

head lolling back

never forget…..

this is a way out.

Agonizing remembrances

black out

shrill screams

why will they not get out?

Why do they cling

pierce my skin

roiling over me

making my dirty?

Haunted eyes

hallow inside

tears flow.

No one witnesses.

No one recognizes.

Bottle after bottle

hidden away

thrown away

too many to count..

Seductive beauty

charming mistress

dancing over my tongue.

Closing in.

Tender fingers tangle

turning my memories

my self-loathing

my disgust

into forgotten moments

wished forgotten when I awoke.

Disgusted mutterings

deeply felt hate

self serving cycle

beginning all over again.

©May 25/19