Stormed Fate

Sea storms
water raging
broiling with cold
lightening crackles across the sky
thunder roars
clapping
breaking over the water
reverberating
felt through to my core.
Tumultuous
waves crash
crackle
tossing me around.
I am lost
within the black depths
no sunlight reaching
I am stagnating
help me please.
Straining
I swim for the surface
ignoring
words
wailing
pain
fear
I will survive
I swear I will get there.
I have gone backward
in a time when I was meant to go forward
vicious slurs
nasty gossip
everyone seems to know
more about me than I do.
I once broke free
stood tall
claimed my past
no longer allowing it to define me.
Yet…..
I find myself
battling the same demons
battling the same nightmares
screaming in silence
mouth rent open
no one will help me
no one will save me.
Sink slowly…..
oblivion.
I give up.
There is no saving.Β 
There is no savior.
There is nothing.
I am gone.
Good bye.
Β©May 28/19

Author: Jay-lyn Doerksen

I am a single hard working mom in her 40's. I have always written poetry and I love words. I live with depression and its ups downs. This is a space where I can create and write all that I need to.

18 thoughts on “Stormed Fate”

  1. No one coming to save you
    and that you cannot be saved
    is what depressions
    wants you to believe
    it makes you blind
    get you sinking deeper
    wants you to kneel and grieve
    But loving and believing in God
    despite all the odds
    is your As under the sleeve.

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  2. When you can write with such passion and emotion there is never an ‘I am nothing’. I am sure there are many who read and admire your writing skills (and some of us are envious as well!) πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚

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