Stormed Fate

Sea storms

water raging

broiling with cold

lightening crackles across the sky

thunder roars

clapping

breaking over the water

reverberating

felt through to my core.

Tumultuous

waves crash

crackle

tossing me around.

I am lost

within the black depths

no sunlight reaching

I am stagnating

help me please.

Straining

I swim for the surface

ignoring

words

wailing

pain

fear

I will survive

I swear I will get there.

I have gone backward

in a time when I was meant to go forward

vicious slurs

nasty gossip

everyone seems to know

more about me than I do.

I once broke free

stood tall

claimed my past

no longer allowing it to define me.

Yet…..

I find myself

battling the same demons

battling the same nightmares

screaming in silence

mouth rent open

no one will help me

no one will save me.

Sink slowly…..

oblivion.

I give up.

There is no saving. 

There is no savior.

There is nothing.

I am gone.

Good bye.

©May 28/19