Ka-booooooom!

***Please note this is not indicative to how I am feeling now. I am cursed (blessed)  living with depression. I have a wealth of emotions and feelings remembered.***
 
What do you see?
What I want you to…..
smiles
laughter
concern
advice
happiness
pretty picture painted.
All a lie.
Alone
giving into the voices
calling my name
threatening me
breaking free from the cage
I bound them in.
No longer sedated
shrill
sharp tones
ring through my head
pain
screaming
I will never forget.
Help me.
Horror
etched upon my face.
Tears
silent tracks drip drip.
Fear
curling inward fetal position.
Tired
can no longer move.
I give up.
No longer can I keep up
public facade
private reality
are about to collide.
©June 7/19
Picture via Pinterest