***Please note this is not indicative to how I am feeling now. I am cursed (blessed) living with depression. I have a wealth of emotions and feelings remembered.***
What do you see?
What I want you to…..
smiles
laughter
concern
advice
happiness
pretty picture painted.
All a lie.
Alone
giving into the voices
calling my name
threatening me
breaking free from the cage
I bound them in.
No longer sedated
shrill
sharp tones
ring through my head
pain
screaming
I will never forget.
Help me.
Horror
etched upon my face.
Tears
silent tracks drip drip.
Fear
curling inward fetal position.
Tired
can no longer move.
I give up.
No longer can I keep up
public facade
private reality
are about to collide.
©June 7/19
Picture via Pinterest
Hope you’re doing well! We don’t chatter as much as we used to..
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You seem to be busy. I fon’t want to bug.
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You never bug me! I will annoy as I get the chance.
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I have just been busy. 😊
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We can’t both be busy…..
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Sure we can it’s life
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I don’t think you like me much anymore… 😝
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That is not it at all. I thought you were mad at me
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Lol!! Jay-lyn, I’ve never been mad at you!
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I never know 🙍
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You’re always good with me J 🙂
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Awesome! 😄😃
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If anything I’d be mad you don’t talk to me
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Hello brother. It has been a strange week
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Talk to me! I’ve been super busy and just want to sleep lol!
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Just busy. Work. Son. Write. Life. Lol you note having a life is last in the list
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I’m sorry! I know the feeling.. I have a lot of irons in the fire. 😕
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And summer is coming. Need a vaca lol
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Lol! I completely understand that!!
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Going to book some long weekends for myself
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You deserve it!
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I agree. I need sunshine. Book. Water. Lounger in the sun
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Yes ma’am! And at least a few messages from your brother
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Yes and a few messages from you
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Maybe just 1 😝
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Few is better
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You think?
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I do. I missed you this week.
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Talk to me! You don’t bother me!
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Ok
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Few is more than 1.
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Well I don’t want to mess up your vacation
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You never could
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Good!
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beautifully and tragically written…………i could feel the desperate pain.
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Thank you. 😊❤
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my pleasure.
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😊
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This is so painful! Hope you are doing well!!
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I am awesome. Thank you
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😊
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You have made a very good job of representing the pain that some go through. 🙂
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Thank you. 😊
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Scary one… just like our daily “lives”
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Thank you. 😄
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