No Father of Mine

It is hard.

For those who do not understand

Father’s day

is not always fun and games

there are those who do not want

do not need

to have fathers shoved in their face.

There was no caring father

not a one in my life

he was duplicitous

alcohol his drug of choice.

Abusive

liar

set me on a path of destruction

killing myself

my heart

my truth

me.

Time came

retribution was mine to take

draw you in

tempt you with your choice

I am waiting behind the door

you will pay

for the pain I finally accept.

Daddy dear

I loved you once.

Daddy dear…..

I hate you

poison you

stab you

excise you from my memories.

Were you not dead

daddy dear

I would be sitting in jail

murder on the plate

thankful

the demons got to spend.

©June 16/19

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