Dearly Behated

Dearly beloved
we have all gathered here today…..
Oh wait
you did not gather?
How then do you come to be here?
Smart.
Yes
you thought you were so smart
none would realize
seduction of the mother
grooming of the daughter
slaughter of their souls.
Snake in the grass
fatal venom
(not poisonous)
a slow black death
consuming one
draining one
devouring beauty
radiance
perverting
sweet innocence.
Ah yes
called you I did 
fool that you were
you came
running as it were.
Each friend
scored
seared
ate away a small part of me
self worth
belief of self
me……
Love came to me
bottled
rolled
snorted
how else to escape the howling demons
seated
place of prominence
forefront of all thoughts
pernicious bastards
devouring my heart.
Sit you down
clamp down on your tongue
screaming is not allowed 
watch watch watch
the knife is waiting
make a sound.
The first time you sold (soiled) me
beaten before and after
made to deal
with heartache
with screaming agony
with piercing horror
became the cobblestone
laid upon the grid of guilt
of a pathway leading us to here
the ultimate….
All roads end here
upon the crossroads of choice
where now you shall face
you shall bear
demons of hate
feasting upon your fear
your pain.
Dearly beloved
gather here we did 
not for beauty 
not for love
for resolution
of a burning of rage.
©June 18/19
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Author: Jay-lyn Doerksen

I am a single hard working mom in her 40's. I have always written poetry and I love words. I live with depression and its ups downs. This is a space where I can create and write all that I need to.

25 thoughts on “Dearly Behated”

  1. This is very well written, a lot of rage that needs to be vented. There is actually so much abuse that never gets reported, even less that gets recorded, and in one of my poems, I made reference to a funeral where people sometimes made reference to the person they would have liked you to be, forgetting for just a moment what a bastard that you might have been. Yes, these things need writing about, as you know I support you for doing this.

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