Longing to
needing to
wanting to……
lead me around the garden gate
using words of glory
of love
of admiration
to turn my head
to turn my heart
to make me believe once more in love.
I hate that I am this weak
that I am filled with desire
craving your soul
needing your presence
to feel whole.
I do not want this.
I do not need this.
I reject the whole premise of affairs
wrapped in cotton candy
head above the clouds
dreaming of times better
brighter
filled with you…..
your touch
your hands
your scent
scare away the imps
carving up my heart
handing out pieces to be eaten.
Rain falls
erasing the words you spoke
cold embraces me
pulling me in
pulling me under
so I can forget the words you proposed.
Speared through to the core
watching you walk away
holding my heart in your hands
bleeding from wounds…..
you pierced me
you laughed at me
you took my love for granted
turning it into a cesspool
from which I shall never arise.
©June 29/19
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The Wonderful and Wacky World of One Single Mom 
Sadly that is a pretty good description of what so often happens after a relationship has ended. The ending was soured by bad memories, even abuse, then the longing comes for a meaningful relationship. As the desires build so emotion can prevail over common sense. The ending then is often of a different form of abuse, where one can walk away feeling used and having lost self-respect and then anger returns. Lovely writing 🙂
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Thank you. I was not really certain where I was going with this one at all. I sat down to write and it came pouring out of me. There is still a lot of residual anger left from the last relationship I was in. It is beginning to resurface which tells me I need to write more of it out. As always I appreciate your kind words. You give me confidence to continue pushing myself in different way. Thank you. 🙂
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Rise or fall,,it just happen as our heart get moved in either direction,,. Feelings carry that power
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