Emotionless…..I wish

I wonder 
I do
what is wrong with me?
Why do you come
only to run
once you have seen the real me?
Headstrong
just one of my features.
Delicate
emotional
head full of dreams.
Fantasies built
when I should know better
for never has anyone cared
long enough to hold my hand
to learn what it is about me
that draws them in
then chases them away.
Sadness
just one emotion I feel daily.
I give so much.
I tell myself
forewarned is forearmed
not this girl
I just fall.
Fall…..
fall…..
twist and turn
there is no way free.
Loneliness
I smile 
no one knows.
Grey mist shrouding
I walk……
alone
this path I tread
the same always since childhood.
Always have I cared for myself
yet once I want for someone…..
someone who will care for me
make me their priority.
Love
a wish flung to the stars
made on birthday candles
never shall I find.
©July 11/19
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Author: Jay-lyn Doerksen

I am a single hard working mom in her 40's. I have always written poetry and I love words. I live with depression and its ups downs. This is a space where I can create and write all that I need to.

17 thoughts on “Emotionless…..I wish”

  1. ‘why do you run’ Have you ever thought that we are brought up to believe in male dominance and female submission? So as soon as a woman of any substance speaks her mind many men run. Ironical really, since their running away actually shows a weakness 🙂

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    1. Wow I never thought of it that way. I enjoyed writing this one given the word was ephemeral and I was not sure how to use. My challenge to myself is that I have to use the actual word in my poetry. In the end I adored how it turned out. 😊

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