Ebb & Flow of Misery

****Please note that this is a creative endeavour and in no way is indicative of how I am feeling.****

Midnight closes in
stars no longer glitter
moon hides behind itself
while I lay and tremble.
Those voices have come calling
home to roost
penetrating my defenses
wrapping their tongues around words
hissed
whispered
only I can hear.
You are worthless.
No one cares.
No one wants to know your fears.
Hush sweet child 
you are ours 
to do with as we will.
Hangman’s noose
fits around my neck
as I stand upon the precipice
tears scattered
dawn does break
sky turning a crimson pink.
Where do I turn?
To whom shall I cry out?
Will old men shout
when I fall from the sky
or turn a blind eye?
I can muster no fight
I can hear no words
other than the torment
vicious
drilling into my psyche
rending my heart.
I can take no more.
Vacant
alone
life holds no joy
only despair and pain.
Coiled in on myself
my only wish…….
to disappear.
©August 4/19
Picture via Pinterest

 

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Author: Jay-lyn Doerksen

I am a single hard working mom in her 40's. I have always written poetry and I love words. I live with depression and its ups downs. This is a space where I can create and write all that I need to.

6 thoughts on “Ebb & Flow of Misery”

  1. Negative thoughts and depression
    those whispering at your ears
    is all part of the plan and scheme
    like firewood feeding your fears
    with time fears grow stronger
    that’s why we fight them for years
    no matter how much is the pain
    how long we have to shed tears
    you’re not alone, let’s stick together
    this darkness inside will get clear.

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