Obliteration

***Once again please note that this is not how I am feeling at this time.***
As a child
I never understood
the bloodshed 
the tearing of my heart
the breaking of my innocence
stolen 
gut wrenching pain
I carried within.
I have spent so much time
so many years
bowing to others
forgetting who I am
what I want
subjugating myself.
I wrapped the chains
cinched tight
threw away the key…..
There is no going forward.
There is no going back.
There is only the black void.
Within my core
a subtle whisper
groaning
undermining the peace
the harmony I have found
reaching skeletal hand out
entangled in my soul
my hair
wrapped in a hug so tight.
I cannot release myself from this danger.
I cannot……
still the words I hear
the chants
nightmarescapes
forced to confront night after night
the arrogance
the chilling reality…..
No one cared.
No one cares.
I chip away
(not I but I)
eroding the solid foundation
stood upon
it flows from beneath
until…..
there is nothing.
©August 5/19
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