Obliteration

***Once again please note that this is not how I am feeling at this time.***

As a child

I never understood

the bloodshed 

the tearing of my heart

the breaking of my innocence

stolen 

gut wrenching pain

I carried within.

I have spent so much time

so many years

bowing to others

forgetting who I am

what I want

subjugating myself.

I wrapped the chains

cinched tight

threw away the key…..

There is no going forward.

There is no going back.

There is only the black void.

Within my core

a subtle whisper

groaning

undermining the peace

the harmony I have found

reaching skeletal hand out

entangled in my soul

my hair

wrapped in a hug so tight.

I cannot release myself from this danger.

I cannot……

still the words I hear

the chants

nightmarescapes

forced to confront night after night

the arrogance

the chilling reality…..

No one cared.

No one cares.

I chip away

(not I but I)

eroding the solid foundation

stood upon

it flows from beneath

until…..

there is nothing.

©August 5/19

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