Lightening’s Agony

***Not indicative of the place I am right now. I am extremely happy and doing very very very well. 🙂 ***

Brilliant flashes

jagged streaks across the night sky

wind

ripping at my clothes.

I am freezing.

Standing on the water’s edge

I bleakly wonder

do I really want to drown?

Dark whorls

dance across the midnight depths

facet of life unsold

memories

bleak

black

overpowering agony

sink to the sand

head upon my chest.

Tears

life force flooding

rapt am I

with the emotions fleeing

anesthetized

despondent

I no longer know how to feel.

Trepidation

when I reached to take your hand

I begged you to understand

to not leave me senseless.

I allowed time

to ripen around

finally

clasping your fingers with mine.

Bewildered I was

when you tore free

anger blurring your face.

This monster

abasing me

I knew not who you were.

Wretched desire

I lay head on the sand

moon pregnant in the sky

chilling water

lapping at my face.

©Sept. 17/19

Picture is one of my own.

Taken at Matlock Beach.