Lightening’s Agony

***Not indicative of the place I am right now. I am extremely happy and doing very very very well. 🙂 ***
Brilliant flashes
jagged streaks across the night sky
wind
ripping at my clothes.
I am freezing.
Standing on the water’s edge
I bleakly wonder
do I really want to drown?
Dark whorls
dance across the midnight depths
facet of life unsold
memories
bleak
black
overpowering agony
sink to the sand
head upon my chest.
Tears
life force flooding
rapt am I
with the emotions fleeing
anesthetized
despondent
I no longer know how to feel.
Trepidation
when I reached to take your hand
I begged you to understand
to not leave me senseless.
I allowed time
to ripen around
finally
clasping your fingers with mine.
Bewildered I was
when you tore free
anger blurring your face.
This monster
abasing me
I knew not who you were.
Wretched desire
I lay head on the sand
moon pregnant in the sky
chilling water
lapping at my face.
©Sept. 17/19
Picture is one of my own.
Taken at Matlock Beach.