Conscious Forever More

I stand

hands on hips

staring at my nakedness

seeing the droop of my breast

the extra inch on my hips

how my thighs are now touching

lips pursed

for I still see them as flaws

I still seek external confirmation

of my inner self.

I am beautiful.

Whether bundled in winter clothes

or clad in bikini on the beach.

No one can take that from me.

I am strong.

I have beaten addiction.

I have beaten my self doubt.

I have beaten

destroyed that voice

my own voice

telling me I am worthless.

I am sexy.

For so long

so very very long

I felt that my sexuality

my desires

they were wrong.

I kept them hidden

in a secret part of me.

No longer.

I labored for so long

deluded by past

devalued by self

awaiting external acceptance

that I do not need

for I am me

and me am I.

Tongue twisted

words never more betrayed

truth has been found

depth of my soul

cage freed my heart

it is my time

it is my turn

to rise & shine.

©Nov. 25/19

Picture is one of my own