New Year…..New Me…..New Decade….New Everything

I watched the sun rise

faint pink blush

golden pulses fill the sky

hues of purple

sense of serenity

sense of peace

finally here

in my happy place.

I struggled.

I abused myself.

I tried to hide.

I am not that little girl.

I am not that frightened teenager.

I am not that beaten/destroyed woman.

No longer afraid…..

of what life has to offer.

To dream.

To love.

To chase what I want.

To be me…..

Writer.

Mother.

Daughter.

Sister.

There is more to me

than these four facets…..

there is adoration

there is pride

there is determination…..

I leave behind me

a decade/life time

of pain

of anger/rage

of despair

of thoughts no longer there.

I begin this New Year

this New Decade

strong

beautiful

and solely

100 %

Me.

©Dec. 31/19

Picture is my own

Charmed Monsters

Longing

yearning

ever so tired

grey is the day

this life

this path I trod.

Where is the light?

Where is the joy?

No Eden can I find.

The past…..

Free wheeling

dealing card after card

pain

humility

hungering

feeding upon the blackness

the evil

rooted within.

My past…..

No longer allowed to define

to dictate…..

Cut away

carve away

sword

epee

skewered to the ground

demons chained

eased with dosed medication

mine to do with as I will.

These daemons

still reside within

gentle murmurs

holding pain

holding fear

now my protectors

I need no longer beware.

Sanctuary found

hellions bound

labor of love.

This me

beauty and beast

all rolled into one.

©Dec. 30/19

Picture is part of my Positivity wall