Interlude of Love

*****If you have not read the first five in the series please do so. They are meant to be read in order.*****
 
 
Wave after wave
delicious emotion
eyes wide 
mouth open 
no sound 
it is a surprise to you
that your legs have not folded
for there is no strength
there is nothing but Daddy
and the joy I bring to him.
Crawling next to him
body shaking 
nestled against his chest
he holds me
stroking hair
shoulder
kissing the top of your head.
There is this comfort
there is this need
a feeling of safety
a feeling as heady as the desire
the lust
that you share.
Once your body quiets
once your mind settled
it is Daddy’s turn for pleasure.
Wicked glint in your eye
seductive grin on your lips
lean in close
brush of your tongue upon his chest
feel him quiver
his grasp tighten
when he hears you whisper:
Relax Daddy
now it is my turn to play.
©Dec. 2/19
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Dismissed

It cost you nothing
not a single damn thing
to reach in
grab my heart
twist it
tear it
before handing it back
with nary a sorry
or sad look.
Resistance was futile
is that not what they say?
Your smooth words
my need for love
combined are deadly.
Not to you
for it was all a ruse
but for me though
these tears…..
will they ever stop?
will I ever see without blurred vision?
will I ever cease to feel
this overwhelming
black consuming ache?
Hand on the blinds
pulled  back
watching you drive away
biting my lip
this pain
I can deal with…..
this pain…..
I can understand.
Zero effort on your part
a hundredfold on mine.
This…..
it is not what I want…..
it is not what I wanted…..
yet I let you in
when you promised
that if I gave you my trust
allowed you to stand at my side
no longer would I be alone
no longer would I have to cry.
These tears
I shall let them flow
falling to dark heart
turn to ice
no more shall I love
no more shall I hurt.
Time has come
I am undone.
Trite as this will sound
(I do beg your forgiveness)
love shall live here no more.
©Dec. 2/19
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