Dismissed

It cost you nothing
not a single damn thing
to reach in
grab my heart
twist it
tear it
before handing it back
with nary a sorry
or sad look.
Resistance was futile
is that not what they say?
Your smooth words
my need for love
combined are deadly.
Not to you
for it was all a ruse
but for me though
these tears…..
will they ever stop?
will I ever see without blurred vision?
will I ever cease to feel
this overwhelming
black consuming ache?
Hand on the blinds
pulled  back
watching you drive away
biting my lip
this pain
I can deal with…..
this pain…..
I can understand.
Zero effort on your part
a hundredfold on mine.
This…..
it is not what I want…..
it is not what I wanted…..
yet I let you in
when you promised
that if I gave you my trust
allowed you to stand at my side
no longer would I be alone
no longer would I have to cry.
These tears
I shall let them flow
falling to dark heart
turn to ice
no more shall I love
no more shall I hurt.
Time has come
I am undone.
Trite as this will sound
(I do beg your forgiveness)
love shall live here no more.
©Dec. 2/19
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Author: Jay-lyn Doerksen

I am a single hard working mom in her 40's. I have always written poetry and I love words. I live with depression and its ups downs. This is a space where I can create and write all that I need to.

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