It Might be Me Time

I decided that I was going to do something nice for myself as well as helping out the ex so I took holidays from Dec. 27-Jan 5th. I have never done this. As I said in part was to help ex as it is his week and Tember is still out of school. Well Tember has decided he is going to his best friend’s. Which means I am alone for 7 days.

Which lead me to do some calculations. It has been well over a year since I have been alone for a stretch of time. And I am not sure what to do with myself.

Sure I will enjoy my ability to run around apartment stark naked but that will last all of thirty seconds and I will be freezing.
I can watch what I want. Already do that.
And then I realized…..I am going to have some serious me time. To read. To write. To sleep in? We all know that won’t happen.

It will be my time. To work with myself for myself. Sounds odd but an up coming post will make that statement make sense.

And to run around naked from dusk til dawn…..in my dreams.

Dec. 20/19
Picture is my own. Was burning incense and smoke was hanging in air. Snapped a few shots and played around. I like how it turned out.

Princely Monster

Pretty little bird
kept in gilded cage
wings clipped 
unable to fly
sits upon the perch.
I was a fool.
I should have known better
a man such as you
with a woman such as me?
Preposterous!
I saw the way they looked at me
with lust
with disgust
no one would ever fathom
I was not the monster
in this game.
Comely elfin fairy
flit from place to place
staring out of  blanked eyes
smile plastered on face.
The first one
I was stunned.
You swore
you avowed
it would never happen again.
Except that it did.
I learned to move
quiet like
all through out the house.
Solemn
sullen
words condemning
fists coming
I had to hide.
Taken from a hovel
placed upon a stage
everyone knew their lines
I did not.
Gallant prince 
to those in public 
monster in our home
beating me.
©Dec. 20/19
Picture via Pinterest