It Might be Me Time

I decided that I was going to do something nice for myself as well as helping out the ex so I took holidays from Dec. 27-Jan 5th. I have never done this. As I said in part was to help ex as it is his week and Tember is still out of school. Well Tember has decided he is going to his best friend’s. Which means I am alone for 7 days.

Which lead me to do some calculations. It has been well over a year since I have been alone for a stretch of time. And I am not sure what to do with myself.

Sure I will enjoy my ability to run around apartment stark naked but that will last all of thirty seconds and I will be freezing.
I can watch what I want. Already do that.
And then I realized…..I am going to have some serious me time. To read. To write. To sleep in? We all know that won’t happen.

It will be my time. To work with myself for myself. Sounds odd but an up coming post will make that statement make sense.

And to run around naked from dusk til dawn…..in my dreams.

Dec. 20/19
Picture is my own. Was burning incense and smoke was hanging in air. Snapped a few shots and played around. I like how it turned out.

Princely Monster

Pretty little bird

kept in gilded cage

wings clipped 

unable to fly

sits upon the perch.

I was a fool.

I should have known better

a man such as you

with a woman such as me?

Preposterous!

I saw the way they looked at me

with lust

with disgust

no one would ever fathom

I was not the monster

in this game.

Comely elfin fairy

flit from place to place

staring out of  blanked eyes

smile plastered on face.

The first one

I was stunned.

You swore

you avowed

it would never happen again.

Except that it did.

I learned to move

quiet like

all through out the house.

Solemn

sullen

words condemning

fists coming

I had to hide.

Taken from a hovel

placed upon a stage

everyone knew their lines

I did not.

Gallant prince 

to those in public 

monster in our home

beating me.

©Dec. 20/19

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